it’s something about your laugh. something about your smile. something bout the way your body curves, that just has me hooked. the way you joke around, the way you try to get me mad. damn baby i don’t know but you, you are everything plus more. who would of thought it would get like this? late night conversations, all day texts. your voice, baby that voice is amazing to me. imagine the things we could do, the things i would do to you. i’m tryna love every inch of you. from your heart to your pus…well you know. every flaw, every good, every bad. let me learn to love it. let me show you what i can do. this is deeper than sex baby this is deeper than we can even imagine. i got plans and they all include you. so are you ready for this ride? can i show you my deepest thoughts? can i tell you my deepest secrets? it can be us against the world and i promise the world ain’t got shit on my baby. so what’s it gonna be?

i can tell by your attitude that things are changing. i haven’t been talking to you like i used to. i haven’t texted you like i used to. i don’t call you like i used to but understand i never stop thinking about you. i can hear it in your voice you are frustrated but i need you to know i still care about you. your name is still the same in my phone. your texts never been erased. your picture is still saved. don’t be scared of what’s happening between us, we always find our way back. just be patient with me. i apologize

you wake up, look in the mirror and see a stranger. someone you have yet to meet. you go to sleep and have dreams about this stranger. you go out with friends who seem to know this stranger very well but you have no clue who this stranger is. these friends are people you barely know but they approach you as if you’ve known them for years. everyone loves this stranger but you still don’t know who they are. they talk about the crazy things they do and you laugh because you wouldn’t do any of those things. you and this stranger are nothing alike. complete opposites. you wonder why people would love such an out of control being, how could they want to be associated with such an simple minded person. you tell them you would want to meet this person, you want to know who this stranger is. you want to know why they love every outrageous thing they do, and then you realize, that stranger is you….you didn’t even recognize your own reflection because you were trying to be who they wanted you do be. all this time you were pretending…..why?

hello, how are you today? still beautiful as always i see. just wanted to let you know you crossed my mind. you’ve been doing that a lot lately. it’s crazy how every second i find myself thinking about you. it’s crazy right? but who could blame me, you are an amazing person. Cute smile, cute laugh, great personality, just overall everything i need. you have that shyness about you that i like, a little mystery i can’t wait to find out. i want to know your secrets, your fears, your goals everything. tell me your flaws so i can tell you the opposite. you say you’re “alright” and i’ll say “nah babe, you’re gorgeous.” you ever feel stressed, tell me everything and i’ll try my best to take that stress away. you want to laugh, i will tell the most lamest joke ever and i bet you’ll laugh. ever feel down, i’ll tell you how amazing and beautiful you are until you get it through your head that it’s true. as you can see, i just want you to be happy. give me the opportunity to make you as happy as you make me. i always think think about what could be, what should be and then i remember….it can’t be

you sit there looking at the girl you wish you knew, but you’re too afraid to speak. you dream about that girl you wish you knew, but you’re too afraid to meet. why is it so hard to say hi? why are you intimidated by such a beautiful face? you know that with her, you could feel your best, but you’re too afraid to approach her. her laugh is cute, her personality is amazing and her smile is contagious. so why are you so afraid? you could be missing out on the best thing to ever happen to you. she just might be what you’re missing in life. you stay awake at night wondering “what if?” but you never follow those dreams. you sit in class day dreaming about late night conversations and good morning texts, but you come back to reality as if those dreams never existed. are you scared of rejection? is that what the problem is? man the fuck up ! stop being so afraid because until then, she will remain the girl you wish you knew….

it’s a new year and of course everyone is saying “new year, new me” but why does it have to happen now? why didn’t you better yourself back in October or July? what’s so special about a new year that you think it’s the only time you can change for the better? matter of fact, how many of those people are actually going to change? i predict none. because it’s just an excuse to procrastinate even more. we can all change for the better any day of any month. not just on January 1st. just leave all negativity back in 2011 and start 2012 with new hopes. and if you didn’t achieve any dreams from 2011 continue to chase them in 2012. 

you give me life, you give me meaning. you bring me happiness but most importantly, you bring me love. i wake up eager to hear your voice. i grow anxious for you kiss. seeing you smile, feeling your touch, hearing you laugh. just many reason why i can’t live without you. the pain of losing you would be greater than the pain of a bullet to the heart. never believed in love until now. just thought it was an artificial feeling. but you showed me something new. taught me how to love, how to care, how to live. love at first sight? never believed in it. thought it was all lust. until time took over. i realized this was bigger than i expected. overwhelmed with emotions. who would of thought one person could make you feel every feeling known to mankind, plus more. love. damn, never thought i would be saying that. you changed me, for the better. only God knows how much we have been through. the arguments were all worth it, it helped us grow. it brought us closer. how much longer can we last? no one knows. but i know i’m keeping you around for as long as i can. i want you to be my wife. but, i haven’t met you yet. until then, i just dream of who, when & where….

hello “dad”, whoever you are. where ever you are. it’s me, your son. i’m 18 now and in college. i’m a crazy, wild, out of control kid with tattoos. Chris, is 20 now. he’s doing real good with music and tattooing. Mom, well she’s married. he’s been the father figure since i was a baby. he stepped in when you didn’t. he’s taught me a lot and helped me through many situations. wish i knew who you were tho, just to rub my life in your face. i’m not mad at you, disappointed tho. i vow that i will never be like you. don’t worry, my priorities are together. ima little guy but i hold my own. i’m stubborn, my mom says i got that from you lol interesting. “family first” that’s my motto. without them, i wouldn’t be here today. would of been nice to have you apart of that but i guess we can’t get everything in life. well, don’t worry about me. i will be successful. i will protect my family. i will be a great father in the future. and i will always be a Holmquist. thanks for giving me life. too bad you can’t see me live it

come here, relax. cells phones off, tv off, lights dimmed down. incense burning. music playing in the background. fresh out the shower, let me grab you a towel. matter of fact, forget the towel. come here. lay down. how about i lick you dry? oh you like that huh? let me grab the oil. a massage would be nice right? lay on your stomach. how’s that? feel relaxed? turn over for me. lay on your back. think i’ll kiss your neck. let me rub your legs down. your thighs. mind if i get a little taste? damn your leg is shaking. you like that huh? no no, give me that pillow. i wanna hear you. don’t be shy. you’re in good hands. let me finish. keep those legs open. don’t push my head away. just let me lick it. your screams are getting louder. your body is shaking. damn, you came. again. it’s not over. keep those legs open. you ready?……

yo young man, mister playa, mister i can get all the girls i want. yeah you. how’s your love life been lately? when was the last time you had a steady relationship? you don’t know? hmm, but i thought you was the big man on campus. the one who could date any girl he wanted and keep her. oh that’s just for show huh? you sit around and wish you could find a girl who would put up with all your shit don’t you? but you can’t find that girl because you want yo be mister playa. you wish you had that “damn, you two still together?” type of relationship don’t you? but you can’t find it because you are mister playa. you wish you had that girl to go to when you need someone. you wish you had that special girl to hold at night. you wish you had that girl to spend time with but you don’t cause you are mister playa. damn, never thought you would be alone huh? still lonely? damn, never thought that would happen huh? you treat girls like sidekicks then move to the next and wonder why you can’t find the right one. you know your little sister? yeah the one in high school. she’s dating a mister playa. she loves him, he doesn’t love her. right now she needs him and he’s with some other girl. she’s crying, he’s laughing. he took her innocence, and doesn’t give two fucks about her. the girls you play could be someone’s little sister too. oh, now you’re mad huh? you still wanna be mister playa now? man up sir

hello gorgeous, how was your day? let me take your coat, relax. we can watch a movie or just talk, it’s your choice. oh, you just want to sleep? i understand. but let me give you a massage first. i can run you a nice bath and relax with you. oh you’re not in the mood? i understand. well tell me what went on today. lay down with me. oh you don’t wanna do that either? i understand. would you like something to eat first? oh you don’t? i understand. but before you sleep, let me just ease your mind. let me take that off your mind. let me please you. let me love you. let me make you happy. let me put a smile on your face. let me kiss you. let me touch you. let me help you. let me protect you. let me defend you. let me dream with you. let me live with you. i can change your life, if you let me….

lay down, close your eyes, and take a deep breath. now go back to your childhood. go back to when you were just a little kid. playing, laughing, jumping, running, happy. can you feel the freedom? did a smile just form on your face? picture you on Christmas morning, opening that present you wanted so bad. can you see how happy you were? now open your eyes, look around. what happened to your innocence? what happened to that smile? what happened to that happiness? what happened to your freedom? who did this to you? why did you let them do this? why have you stopped being happy? why did you stop following your dreams? it was society wasn’t it? when you were a kid, they said you can be whatever you want to be when you grow up. they said, follow your dreams. they said, no one can stop you. but they did stop you. you stop following your dreams. you turned the other way and lived how they wanted you to live. where is that ambition you had when you heard the ice cream truck, so you ran as fast as you could so you wouldn’t miss it? stand up, look in the mirror, smile. laugh. jump. do a crazy dance. the kid you misses the real you. don’t let them down. go for it.